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[decisions]

We will...

[ he looks downward. ]

I won't put a burden on you if you don't want it but... he cares very much for you...

[ he shakes his head ]

See him whole. If he ends up with me tomorrow... I won't let him do anything that ends in his demise. I won't allow it. It'll only be me that leaves. I will do whatever it takes.

[allomantic]

[quietly, after a moment:]

I would have done that even if you didn't ask.

[decisions]

Thank you... Vin...

[ softly. a smile. soft. faint. far off. he squeezes his eyes shut, tightly like there's an ache in his head. ]

I'm sorry I couldn't be a better person.

[allomantic]

[she pauses again, her voice softening.]

...You didn't choose this, either.

[decisions]

I didn't...

It chose me... but I must carry whatever it put on my shoulders. This... thing. [ he looks to her ] Treat the others the same. I know what this is like, I've known the feel of claws in your back, teeth in your neck telling you what to do, steering you where to go. This?

[ his voice is quiet: ] I will be okay... These are just old wounds.

[allomantic]

...How much can you tell me about it?

[decisions]

I can... tell you what it feels like? I can tell you what it felt like that night... what we tried to do...?

[ he swallows ]

Ask, and I'll do my [ he curls his fingers tightly into his palm, a wave of something crests over him and he rides it quietly. ] --best.

[allomantic]

[she nods, after a moment. normally she wouldn't press about something that's this clearly painful for him, but... she needs to know.]

Yes. You said it was like... something sinking its fangs into you? I know that was a turn of phrase, but - did it feel like there was another entity actually controlling you, or compelling you?